I felt lost. And time, well that went along with my mind. Last Thursday I was sitting in my room, after having just woke from an uncomfortably warm nap, and thought that I had a partially full week ahead of me. Alas, to my surprise it was a myth, a tale, a sad, sad, story. For it was not Tuesday, but Thursday. I jumped up in a frantic state, and started to think about what I had to do. But there was nothing I had to do. Absolutely nothing. My heart was still pounding, but not because of the idea of losing time on things I had to do, but rather because there was nothing to do. I sat there for calm myself, watching the dust reach its decided destination, and started to think of what I could do. I thought about the stuff I told myself I was going to do. You see, I told myself that I was going to create a three step plan. That plan consisted of three things, and well, I think I should follow through with this plan. My plan revolves around me, sorry for sounding coincided, however it is a self improvement plan. My plan consists of improving three things, my skin, weight, and teeth.
At first I thought I could improve my pale, sensitive, and easily prone to disaster, skin by tanning, although I really don’t think that is the best thing to do. I’ve had extreme difficulty with my skin since I was a preteen. In the words of my mother, “it is a constant battle!”. Well yes, I guess it will be. Acne. Blah. What a word. It has improved drastically, but not with some serious fighting. I have used everything, from proactive to Accutane, and all those in between. I feel kind of stuck. So my improvement plan is limited at the moment to my regular skincare medication, something the doctor prescribed, which maintains it. So I’ll continue with this treatment, but I might have to get out the big guns in a bit, whatever those might be.
Now, the weight. That heaviness that I feel all day, not only physically, but mentally. I think about it constantly, and the strain it has on me. Horrible. I have three months, and I have hired a personal trainer, we’ll call her E, and I’ve reinstated my gym membership, I plan on getting my extra weight off, and not only for the general public, but for myself. I want to feel better. I have went to the gym practically every day for the last few weeks, and plan on going tomorrow as well. I know all there is to know about the health and fitness since I was practically raised in a gym, mother being a fitness fanatic and all, although I’ve never wanted to implement my knowledge, but I think now is a great time to get moving since I have the time, and really should get healthy. I need to focus on my eating. I eat way too much.
Finally, I am planning on fixing my teeth. There isn’t too much wrong with them, except for some spacing, but I have always wanted that fixed, so I might as well do it. My family has never had the financial means in order to fix the spacing, so since I am an adult I can pay for it myself. I plan on making a consultation with my dentist soon. I might get metal braces. Yes, metal. But it will be worth it in the long run because I will have what I want.
I know that looks are not everything, but I work hard at work and school, and I feel I do well. I do not see why I shouldn’t work hard at my appearance as well. I should strive to be my best in every aspect. So here I go!
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